When I think about that number…
I think about how far I’ve come.
I think about how ‘1’ seemed impossible-talking to even 1 new person felt daunting, terrifying, paralyzing.
Five years and six months ago I didn’t know how I would ever get out of bed, get dressed, leave my home, run an errand, drive my car, be anywhere…alone.
This, makes that number all the more meaningful. That number represents the people I will have personally spoken to around the world-not including in webinars, or online, or through Choosing Hope, but actually traveled to and spoken to in person by the end of 2018.
When I reflect back on the period in my life known as- my darkest hour, the time when down was up, and right was wrong and everything (or nothing) didn’t make sense. The space where tragedy so closely overtook my life-I think about how far I’ve come.
Saying yes to that very first audience, believing that if I could muster the strength, the courage: that I could help someone, in some small way. That was all it took. That step, (tiny step) lead me to this, to what seems such an incredible feat, and yet was a series of small accomplishments over time. Moments accumulated over the course of five plus years.
As I reflect back on everything that has lead me to this-I can’t help but focus on the mundane…the ins and outs of our daily lives.
I recently read an article where Oprah was quoted as saying ‘when you are thinking about your career, ‘what to do with your life,’ what your purpose is…think instead about what to do next, and do that. Just do that.’
How right she is.
I had NO idea how to answer any question about life, purpose or moving forward after December 14th 2012. I had no answers to all of my questions that buzzed around inside my head. But I was able to listen to myself, that voice that said ‘this can’t be it, there must be more, there must be moving forward’…and so there was. Next. What to do next…
At the time taking on some grand goal, or new purpose would have been beyond overwhelming-I could barely must the courage to get out of bed. I didn’t set out to speak to 200,000 people…I set out to get out of bed, and then to make a new choice, one that would attempt to answer questions that seemed impossible to answer. I started out following just that-and then saying yes to just ‘1’ audience. Deciding to ‘do just that.’
We all have that precious gift in front of us each and every day of our lives: what’s next? What to do next?
And then, just do that.